



Nov 20th 2009 - Treatments started: Noah has started his intensive treatments to fight the disease. He is on I.V fluids and a cocktail of drugs to suppress his gastro intestinal conditions. As of right now his current condition is very bad; he is having bloody diarrhea, vomiting blood, low white blood cell counts, lethargic, and no appetite. Basically right now he is barley alive. We are hoping he responds quickly to treatments. He may need plasma transfusions if his blood protein and white blood cells levels drop anymore.
There is not much work here, and working for the county provides good pay and benefits for a person like me without a higher education. I'm the person you all write about how horrible I am.
I'm the one that gasses the dogs and cats and makes them suffer. I'm the one that pulls their dead corpses out smelling of Carbon Monoxide and throws them into green plastic bags. But I'm also the one that hates my job and hates what I have to do.
First off, all you people out there that judge me, don't. God is judging me, and I know I'm going to Hell. Yes, I'm going to hell. I wont lie, it's despicable, cold, cruel and I feel like a serial killer. I'm not all to blame, if the law would mandate spay and neuter, lots of these dogs and cats wouldn't be here for me to gas. I'm the devil, I know it, but I want you people to see that there is another side to me the devil Gas Chamber man.
The shelter usually gasses on Friday morning.
Friday's are the day that most people look forward to, this is the day that I hate, and wish that time will stand still on Thursday night. Thursday night, late, after nobody's around, my friend and I go through a fast food line, and buy 50 dollars worth of cheeseburgers and fries, and chicken. I'm not allowed to feed the dogs on Thursday, for I'm told that they will make a mess in the gas chamber, and why waste the food.
So, Thursday night, with the lights still closed, I go into the saddest room that anyone can every imagine, and let all the doomed dogs out out their cages.
I have never been bit, and in all my years doing this, the dogs have never fought over the food. My buddy and I, open each wrapper of cheeseburger and chicken sandwich, and feed them to the skinny, starving dogs.
They swallow the food so fast, that I don't believe they even taste it. There tails are wagging, and some don't even go for the food, they roll on their backs wanting a scratch on their bellys. They start running, jumping and kissing me and my buddy. They go back to their food, and come back to us. All their eyes are on us with such trust and hope, and their tails wag so fast, that I have come out with black and blues on my thighs.. They devour the food, then it's time for them to devour some love and peace. My buddy and I sit down on the dirty, pee stained concrete floor, and we let the dogs jump on us. They lick us, they put their butts in the air to play, and they play with each other. Some lick each other, but most are glued on me and my buddy.
I look into the eyes of each dog. I give each dog a name.
They will not die without a name.
I give each dog 5 minutes of unconditional love and touch.
I talk to them, and tell them that I'm so sorry that tomorrow they will die a gruesome, long, torturous death at the hands of me in the gas chamber.
Some tilt their heads to try to understand.
I tell them, that they will be in a better place, and I beg them not to hate me.
I tell them that I know I'm going to hell, but they will all be playing with all the dogs and cats in heaven.
After about 30 minutes, I take each dog individually, into their feces filled concrete jail cell, and pet them and scratch them under their chins. Some give me their paw, and I just want to die. I just want to die. I close the jail cell on each dog, and ask them to forgive me. As my buddy and I are walking out, we watch as every dog is smiling at us and them don't even move their heads. They will sleep, with a full belly, and a false sense of security.
As we walk out of the doomed dog room, my buddy and I go to the cat room.
We take our box, and put the very friendly kittens and pregnant cats in our box.
The shelter doesn't keep tabs on the cats, like they do the dogs.
As I hand pick which cats are going to make it out, I feel like I'm playing God, deciding whose going to live and die.
We take the cats into my truck, and put them on blankets in the back.
Usually, as soon as we start to drive away, there are purring cats sitting on our necks or rubbing against us.
My buddy and I take our one way two hour trip to a county that is very wealthy and they use injection to kill animals.
We go to exclusive neighborhoods, and let one or two cats out at a time.
They don't want to run, they want to stay with us. We shoo them away, which makes me feel sad.
I tell them that these rich people will adopt them, and if worse comes to worse and they do get put down, they will be put down with a painless needle being cradled by a loving veterinarian. After the last cat is free, we drive back to our town.
It's about 5 in the morning now, about two hours until I have to gas my best friends.
I go home, take a shower, take my 4 anti-anxiety pills and drive to work.. I don't eat, I can't eat. It's now time, to put these animals in the gas chamber. I put my ear plugs in, and when I go to the collect the dogs, the dogs are so excited to see me, that they jump up to kiss me and think they are going to play.
I put them in the rolling cage and take them to the gas chamber. They know. They just know. They can smell the death.. They can smell the fear. They start whimpering, the second I put them in the box. The boss tells me to squeeze in as many as I can to save on gas. He watches. He knows I hate him, he knows I hate my job. I do as I'm told. He watches until all the dogs, and cats (thrown in together) are fighting and screaming. The sounds is very muffled to me because of my ear plugs. He walks out, I turn the gas on, and walk out.
I walk out as fast as I can. I walk into the bathroom, and I take a pin and draw blood from my hand. Why? The pain and blood takes my brain off of what I just did.
In 40 minutes, I have to go back and unload the dead animals. I pray that none survived, which happens when I overstuff the chamber. I pull them out with thick gloves, and the smell of carbon monoxide makes me sick. So does the vomit and blood, and all the bowel movements. I pull them out, put them in plastic bags.
They are in heaven now, I tell myself. I then start cleaning up the mess, the mess, that YOU PEOPLE are creating by not spay or neutering your animals. The mess that YOU PEOPLE are creating by not demanding that a vet come in and do this humanely. You ARE THE TAXPAYERS, DEMAND that this practice STOP!
So, don't call me the monster, the devil, the gasser, call the politicians, the shelter directors, and the county people the devil. Heck, call the governor, tell him to make it stop.
As usual, I will take sleeping pills tonight to drown out the screams I heard in the past, before I discovered the ear plugs. I will jump and twitch in my sleep, and I believe I'm starting to hallucinate.
This is my life. Don't judge me. Believe me, I judge myself enough."
Source: Helpsaveone.
Please Also See Video. Caution, Video is VERY GRAPHIC.
**The murders are the people who let their pets breed, NOT the people who gass or euthanize them**
Bently was dumped in an apartment building at 9 months old as estimated by the veterinarian at the time. The person who originally saved him from the apartment building could no longer keep him. Bentley ended up having major ear mite infestations and eye infections, which we treated. Bentley was able to be place in the end with a friend of the person who originally had to give him up. Bentley and his original owner hope to one day reunite under better circumstances.
Honey was rescued August 14th and adopted October 11th. This little girl was found on a busy road completely lost and abandoned. She is now enjoying her new life in New York!! How exciting.
Cricket was rescued August 30th and adopted October 9th. Circket was rescued from a feral cat population and was one of 15 feral kittens. This lucky girl is now in her new home and enjoying her new life being pampered.
Panda was rescued September 8th and adopted September 25th. He was rescued from a feral cat population, he was one of 15 feral kittens borne to three stray mothers. We worked hard to socialize him and his siblings and continue to try and place them. He came in scared out of his mind of humans, covered in fleas and very skinny. In our care he flourished into a healthy playful kitten. He continues to flourish and come out of his shell in his new home now where he is turning into an affectionate house cat. He has come a long way from where he started on the streets and we are happy to say he is finally in his forever home.
Diamond was rescued August 3rd and adopted September 11th. Diamond and her siblings (Twister & Daisy) were brought in a box, all very sick and had an upper respiratory infection, Rhinotracheitis virus. Diamond was the sickest of the group, she was so affected by the infection she could barley breathe. We were not sure if she was strong enough to fight off the infection, even with the antibiotics. But we gave her a chance, and to our surprise she responded amazingly to the treatment!! She has now almost completely overcome the infection. On top of a sever upper respiratory infection Diamond had a nasty eye infection, leaving both of her third eye lids retracted. Her eye infection has now completely cleared up. Diamond now healthy and after a harsh start to life, has been placed in her forever home were she can finally live in peace.
Madeleine: was rescued July 18th 2009 and adopted September 1st 2009. Madeleine and her sister Moon were born in the garage of someone's house. He didn't bother too much with them, leaving them to be completely unsocialized. He was planning to kick them out to the streets, to only reproduce and add to the stray cat over population. When Madeleine was first caught she was so scared of everyone. Madeleine and her sister were place in two separate foster homes to be socialized. They both thrived in their foster homes. Madeleine turned into an adorable, playful, loving little girl. She has now been placed in a loving home where she will be cherished for the rest of her life.
Moon: The sister of Madeleine, was adopted by her amazing foster family within the first week of fostering her. She is such a doll and won over their hearts pretty fast, and even their cats heart who was not to pleased with her at first. Her and her sister were borne in the shed of a mans house by a stray cat, they lived there for 5 weeks with out any human contact. Because they had no human contact, they were feral kittens. They were facing being kicked out of the shed, and becoming just another cat in the stray cat population. To avoid this, and avoid the hundreds of babies they would have produced, we decided to take them on. To catch them, live traps were set and constantly checked. Moon was the first one to be caught, although having no human contact she actually tolerated being handled very well. She was tiny, and riddled with fleas. She was then placed in her foster family where within days she came out of her shell. She became a loving affectionate, playful, little kitten and continues to grow and thrive in her now forever home.
Charlotte was rescued September 21st and adopted October 3rd. She was a victim of divorce (not only kids are affected by divorce!). No one wanted to keep her after the split so they decided to euthanize her. We rescued her from being euthanized. Although being an older dog (7 years old), she still has a ton of life and love left in her to share. She unfortunately has a partially torn ligament which she had lived with for a year. Her new owner still adopted her despite her older age and sore leg and on top of it is looking into correcting her condition. She is a such a lovely and lucky girl, and thankfully found an amazing new home to ride out her golden years in.
Archie was going to be euthanized because the elderly couple that decided to buy a puppy realized they could not keep up with his energy. They resented Archie for doing what any normal pup does, just being happy and playful. They even blamed him for their fall in health and said he was the root of all their health problems. Finally after a 6 months of having him they thought the only option, was to euthanize him. We stepped in and saved this poor guy. He is now a very happy member of an active family and enjoys spending the weekends at the country house and going to the sons baseball games.
Kingston was abandoned in a neighbor hood and brought into us. He was un-netered and extremely underweight. We helped him gain weight, got him neutered. He also had some bad teeth that needed to be removed, so we gave him a dental and cleaned up his beautiful smile. He was such a good little god and we are happy to see him move on into an amazing new home with a new friend. He is now being spoiled with love and attention.
Piglet: Rescued July 7th and adopted August 5th. Piglet is a one year old female pug, was given up to me on July 7th 2009 because of her shedding. She came to me petrified and overweight. The first few days I had her, she would not move, and just hid under my couch, or in my pile of clothes. She weighed a whooping 22.9lbs, I was able to get 4lbs off her in one month of my care. With Purina Over Weight Management and a lot of exercise. She bloomed into one of the sweetest dogs I have ever come across. Like any pug, she loves to play, and everything in life to her is a game. Her spirits always high, she can make you smile on any day with just her goofy personality. She loves to shower you head to toe in kisses, until you can no longer stand it. Everyone who met her instantly fell in love with her. Fostering her was a pleasure; she brought a lot of joy into my life while having her around. I loved her like my own, and will definitely miss having her around. But I know she has been placed in an amazing home. She will be unconditionally loved for the rest of her life and have all the attention she deserves (and demands for!). I am very happy to see her go into her new home, and I am excited for her, as this is the beginning of a long, amazing life with them.



